With God the most impossible things
happen, you have to take risks, you persevere, your character is built up and
you have hope. Wow, your character is built up! It's probably one of the
hardest things to go through but in the end it's so worth it.
I'm talking about those moments where
there is nothing left for you to do but TRUST, have faith in Him. That moment
when you have a problem, a situation, a circumstance, whatever you want to call
it. You look at your life and you have this list of things that you need to do.
On top of that you have a time limit; you need to manage your time well so that
things can run smoothly. So you look back at all the things that need to get
done and think how in the world will I manage to do this!? But you try to do it
anyway. You start making schedules, organizing details, you find the words you
think will work right to get you that job you want, you become the master of
your own life. You got everything under control, everything is planned you just
have to follow through. But then things don't work the way you wanted to. All
these obstacles start coming and you start going through them. At first you
make it through, but all this hard work starts taking a toll on you. You're
tired, then you get angry at yourself, you take it on your family and those you
love the most. So how is being the master of your own world working for you?
You have made yourself tired and hurt those around you.
Then you remember Him. He was always
there. He promised to be with you through your trials but you pushed Him aside
and became the master. He promised to take your problems, to lead you, to
provide for you but that was not enough; you are the master, so you can take on
those things. What now? You look back at Him. There He is looking at you deeply
in the eyes. You look away you feel ashamed but his eyes show love, care, tenderness.
Tears start falling down your face as he takes a step and embraces you. He
holds you and his embrace tells you that everything will be alright. All your
worries about life, money, plans, family fade away. You know everything will be
alright. He takes the weight He promised to take and gives you rest that you
can only find in His arms. He becomes God of your life again.
This has been me in the past month. I
tried. I thought I could manage to arrange what my life will look like after
I'm done with the Bible School. He led me; I had the intentions of letting him
do so completely. But then I took the lead. I started thinking that I could
make things happen. I started taking a weight that was never mine, those things
in my life I cannot control, money, visas, strength, peace, rest. I need all
these things but I cannot obtain them on my own. My life is a life of faith, I
don't get paid for my job, and I don't determine my future, God does. My life
is not my own, I am not my own, I was bought at a price. I am now a slave to
righteousness. Because of this I ought to live not in my own strength, not in
my flesh, but I ought to live in the Spirit, under his leadership. This is freedom.
This is the freedom I have found. Surrender, dying to myself that is what
brings life. This is the truth I need to learn to walk in.
"I have been crucified with Christ.
It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live
in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself
for me." - Galatians 2:10
"And those who belong to Christ Jesus
have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires." -Galatians 5:24
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